Thanks, will do :)

12. The reason behind my last breakup
It just kind of fizzled out at the end. I got tired of going through the motions when I didn’t have my heart in it. I focused more on other things (college apps, school) and became increasingly distant. It was a point where I didn’t feel like I was getting any emotional benefits. 

26. An internal conflict I have with myself
I’m really socially awkward. I really suck with people. The bigger problem is that I don’t have the motivation to improve, nor do I even want to. This is my train of thought when I’m with a group of unfamiliar people: What should I say? I don’t have anything to say, so this is just me awkwardly listening to other people. I should smile more, but my smile looks funky. What if I have food in my teeth? How do I respond to that? 

56. What I hate/hated most about school
I hate doing readings. IT IS SO SLOW. I ALWAYS FALL ASLEEP. Also, I hate how sucking up to teachers is necessary for future endeavors. You need those damn recs. I always question those students who ask the teacher a billion questions and talk to the teacher after class. It’s just like, how much ass do you have to kiss to make it in life? Yeah, I’m going to fail and be a hobo.

22. The meanest thing anyone has ever said to me
I honestly don’t remember anything truly mean. Or else I probably would have started crying. Yay my stupid feelings. Aside from that, Vix throws out terrible insults every day.

25. What are my future plans
No idea. Officially, I’m premed, but I don’t really know if that’s what I want to do. I’ve never even done research in a lab. In fact, my last experience with a medical doctor was about…5 years ago? I don’t know anything about the healthcare system. I don’t know why I want to be a doctor. So…it’s up in the air now…

45. My relationship with my sibling(s)
Vix and I are okay. Sometimes he’ll ask me for help with random stuff. He calls me “fatty” and “fag”. I do the same back. Lol.

5. A description of my self-esteem
My self-esteem is a very lame rollercoaster. It goes up and down, but never too far from equilibrium. Honestly, most days I don’t even think about it. Sometimes, though, I realize how much of a couch potato I am and how it’s starting to show (hopefully not too much yet). I compare myself with other people I’m with or other people on the street. Sadly, I feel better about myself through downward comparison, haha. For example: At least I’m not stupid, at least I’m not obese, at least I’m not living in poverty, at least I’m not disfigured or terribly ugly. Kind of pathetic, but it works.

38. My idea of a perfect date
Perfect date….hmmm. It would be completely unplanned, taking me by surprise. The man would call me only minutes before to tell me to dress up, then come whisk me from my home in his car. We would drive to a fancy restaurant. We would dine like kings, with little regard to the cost. I would feel guilty but giddy at the same time. Next, we would go to a secluded area where we could watch the sun set and I could take many pictures, cause that’s my thing. After it turns dark, we would go get frozen yogurt or ice cream, then catch a late night movie. Well, I just described a mish mash of types of dates I’ve had with Andy. Hahahaha. But anything kind of unique is exciting.

16. My favorite songs right now
I’m in a Fun. phase, so currently “At Least I’m Not as Sad (As I Used to Be)”, “Light a Roman Candle with Me”, “All the Pretty Girls,” basically anything on their first album lol. On the radio, I’m enjoying the more hipster-ish music: more Fun., “Everybody Talks”, “Lights” I guess. Everything else is getting on my nerves. (Holy quotation marks)